I have a problem thinking myself into depression
I now have scars from you too
I loved you and I love you
You left me
You told me you had a different type of love for me
That I was special
I ate up every word
The worst part about feeling my heart crumble inside me
Is knowing you are flawless
And knowing you really did nothing wrong
All you did was fall in love
With not me
And that’s no crime
But my love, oh my love
How I wish you were mine.
I see you enjoy life
I see you on a roller coaster that is going nowhere but up.
My heart hurts
My head hurts
My body hurts
I can’t lay in my bed without thinking about making you cum
I can’t pet a cute dog without thinking about you and your love
I can’t sleep at night without thinking about your laugh
your anger towards me
I see you make friends, and fall deeper in love
And as happy as I am for you
I cant help but feel an emptiness in my gut
I crave you