Esther J. Doucet

- The Truth Can’t Handle Me -

the truth can’t handle me.

beauty is a curse.

where are my true friends?

i am used to this.

are you playing the game?

pretend to be my friend.

give me a nickname.

i’m so interesting.

this is what you say.

talk to me all day.

eventually it comes.

confessions spilling out.

mudslide down the hill.

water from a spout.

you are not my friend.

you look out for yourself.

you want to sleep with me?

we hardly know each other.

i thought we could go hike.

grab lunch because its nice.

but now all you can say

“is sex on the way?”

no. it’s IN the way.

i don’t have any friends.

beauty is a curse.

can i trust a soul?

seems that’s all they want.

i am so much more.

when will i be free?

i cannot complain.

at least that’s what they say.

“you have a sexy body.”

i have a sexy brain.

my feelings mean zilch?

is someone listening?

i am used to this.

confess now, i insist.

don’t lie or i’ll persist.

i can handle truth.

but the truth can’t handle me.

get your hands off, please.

ask me how i am.

hold a conversation.

inspire me to smile.

let me be human.

i am not some god.

treat me like an equal.

nothing more, nothing less.

you can’t have my booty.

you can’t have my breasts.

and i will still be lonely

once i’m out with this.

people will ignore me

because i don’t exist.

i am just some body.

my feelings are worthless.

that is just your loss.

you don’t know what you miss.

i have more much more inside me

than you could ever give.

you are just another

loser on my list.

i run out of fingers.

dealt my fair share of favors.

nothing in return.

i think you’re just another.

you can’t hide from me.

and i may be lonely.

but i am always free

because the truth can’t handle me.