the sweet embrace of sadness encompasses me
like a wave swallowing itself over and over
whispering a throaty roar as i tumble back and forth
the umbrellas and kind eyes of tourists on the sun-warmed sand i once stood slowly slip away
once engaging me with their gazes
now packing their towels into their baskets
their chatter becomes indistinguishable as i\'m deafened by the ringing in my ears
i claw at the ocean floor
but nothing
now, all i see is darkness
the salt sends a jolting sting to my eyes
i try to gasp for air, but the current slowly takes me
and slowly, i let it
and slowly, i begin to feel the familiar comfort of breathlessness in the angry waves that envelope me with safety and detachment
they are the constant
they are what i can count on to always return
here i am again
alone, alone