you said goodbye to me, way before you said it with your lips
you managed to leave me while standing right beside me
the most devastating part of it all
was willingly standing beside you too,
with you
for you
and knowingly that while i was falling in love with you
you were falling away from me
but as if you were a lifeline and letting you go meant the end, i clung with both hands onto the memories of us and even though my hands were bleeding from the rope burn i managed to let one hand go to hold your own.
the hardest decision i had to make
was choosing myself over you, choosing to live over you
because how could i make that decision when i had already decided
i was already living FOR you
i walk past you with chains attached to my ankles and knives embedded in my stomach
how could you do this to me