Sleepless nights full of regret
For holding it all in
Waiting for the erosion
Of my mind to begin
My soul wanders aimless
Blind, lost and weak
A beautiful future
Now dark, lonely and bleak
Where do I look for courage
To find my voice
Is it too late?
Do I still have a choice?
Am I destined to be silent?
Nothing more than a mute
Unable to express
And emotionally irresolute
So now I just sit
In a dark corner and sigh
Looking for answers
To the how, when and whys
I hope the answers come soon
On why I don’t speak
Why I can’t express what I feel
And why I feel lonely and weak
Until I find the answers
I’ll just continue to cut
But I will hide my arms well
So nobody sees and thinks I’m a nut.