How is it that people can enjoy life?
I repeatedly asked myself this very question as I sharpen this knife ...
Why can\'t I find happiness?...
Why cant i find my purpose?...
Why can\'t I find love?..
why do I feel worthless?....
Dam... my tortured mind and thoughts...
How can I continue going on like this feeling so distraught...
Is it easier to fight through this pain? ...
Or is it easier to take this knife and cut through my veins....
The darkness of my thoughts are overwhelming....
As push the knife harder against my wrist hoping that all this will soon be ending...
Will it? ... I\'m not sure anymore ....
My emotional battles.. no one notices my never ending war...
Will I be missed? Will anybody care?....
Does it matter? Guess not cuz there\'s nobody here...
I\'m lost....