In my head are a thousand thoughts
Thoughts about not being good enough
being the ugly friend
holding everything in
and about giving up
but in my head are memories
memories with my parents
with my friends
with my enemies
with my pets
but also with pain
in my head are emotions that I can’t comprehend
feelings of worthlessness
exclusion
untrustworthy
emptiness
sadness
some happiness
but mostly loneliness
but in my head are dreams
dreams where I stay awake forever
dreams where I die
and dreams where I fall down an endless hole
my head is of full capacity
i can’t sleep some nights because I’m scared of a new day
you can try to help me but the truth is I can only
help myself,
and who knows when that’ll happen