Shattered, Mended, Shattered Again
The pain I go through never ends
The bleaming sun shines down on the pieces of my broken heart
A never before seen colour
It’s beautifully tragic
Painfully gorgeous
Blinding, yet, eye-opening
I want to scream
But all anyone could hear is the sound of my heart breaking more and more
A never before heard sound
Deafening, yet, melodic
I want to hear none of it, but I want to hear all of it
It hurts
It hurts to breathe such a disease filled air
It hurts to get your heart broken countless times
It hurts to not matter and be so unloved
It hurts to slide a blade deep into my scar-covered wrist
It hurts to not be able to breathe through the tears I’m weeping
It hurts to be used as a sex object
It hurts to just be a pick me up
It hurts, I hurt, you hurt me
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