Pressure builds up like walls, building in my head
A force behind it, threatening to spill-
An overflow, a river,
A rush of adrenaline and a twinge of regret
Eyes watering, mouth dry-
Why, oh why?
Built from nothing
Made into something
Anywhere and everywhere, enjoyment
And sadness.
A never-ending guilt that gnaws at the heart.
Ripping piece by piece until thereʼs nothing but shreds.
Unstoppable tears, falling down
They stain my cheeks, like paint from a canvas.
Red, blue and so much more
I donʼt even know what for.
Until the pain fades into numbness
I sit and stare into the space that is my mind.
Finally calm, but forever saddened
That nub resides- a dull, throbbing pain
That never quite fades.
Always remembered and never forgotten.