And If I am to know you:
i am only to violate you
to destroy you inside.
And if I am to know you:
i am to comb thinning hair
ignore the clumps in the shower
the greying, the paleness of
Crackling and drying skin.
And if I am to know you:
i am to push away
anyone who cares
for saying “ i love you”
means
I love the feeling of loving you.
And if I an to know you;
shove a tube in my throat
in my stomach
scare me
please.
I need it.
No, I don’t.