Heart racing
Mind pacing
Why am I not concentrating
Theres a thought
What am I contemplating
Whats driving me
My heads spiraling
Out of control
I gotta get out of reach
Into a hole
What am I contemplating
Who will listen
Actually hear me
Deaf ears
But sarah we’re listening
No you’re not
You’re not really here for me
The stress is waning on me
What am I contemplating
Stretched and used
Mentally abused
By mainly myself
And those who refuse
To actually care
And wear my shoes
To attempt to accept
Or understand why it is
That my mind is bereft
What am I contemplating
Must stay strong for myself
Its me alone
theres no one else
With me in my head
I know what I’m contemplating
it will always be there
But I must lock it away
Because they’ll never know the strength
Of what it took to stay