As young as i was,
I know what you were doing.
You might not know that i know.
With every look i watched you give,
I could witness the disappointment upon your face.
You knew i seen your expressions that\'s why you gave them.
You might not know this,
But your the reason i am the way i am,
And i hear you blame others but if only you knew.
As young as i was,
Doctors appointments should\'ve scared me because of shots,
But really i was scared of the expression on your face when the doctor told you my weight.
As young as i was,
I shouldn\'t of been so self conscious about my weight,
But you made me so scared to even go up a pound.
As young as i was,
Maybe i should\'ve been smaller,
Maybe then i wouldn\'t of been bullied.
As young as i was,
People thought my biggest bully would be my older siblings.
Littler did you/they know it was you all along.
As young as i was,
I shouldn\'t of been scared of stepping on a scale,
But you made me that way.
As old as i am now,
I have never told you this,
Youd probably think I\'m wrong.
As old as i am now,
Doctors appointments still scare me,
Because i think of the look you\'ll be giving me.
As young as i was,
You left a deep imprint in my mind,
Even though your the person i turn to the most.
You tell me I\'m beautiful and perfect and shouldn\'t lose weight,
But how come when you look at my scale you only see a flaw,
A flaw if i lost i would be perfect.
As young as i was,
Why did you give those looks,
Why did i disappoint you so much.