breathe in, breathe out...

All I was doing was sitting.

Sitting on my bed, watching a tv show, eating muffins.

Simple enough, right?

The change comes as my muscles start to feel like they’re tingling.

My nervous system becomes live wires, and my body feels the current shooting through like it’s only water.

‘Run.’ the voice tells me, ‘Run away,’ he whispers into my neutrons as it takes control over the steering wheel of my brainstem.

My legs pull me to the door.

Now I’m the best prepared for the worst case scenarios - I’m prepared to fight the stranger in the alley that simply walks by, or the dog whose bite to crush bone simply wants to say hello.

I’m running from the monster under that bed that my brain knows isn’t even there.

Breathe in, Breathe out.

Breathe in, Breathe out.

Learn how to play the piano.

Watch a new TV show.

Watch a film in a foreign language.

Go outside, meet up with a friend or something.

Just do something.

I’m not in any danger.

Distract me, me.

Breathe in, Breathe out...