I try so hard to make them proud, but everything I do just brings then down .
I\'ve been lied to , I\'ve been used but most importantly I\'ve been abused.
Suicide just runs through my mind , One thought at a time .
I scream in my room \"WHEN WILL THIS END\" as I slide the razor across my skin going deeper and deeper.
I just cant run away from it , no not this time . I\'m forever trapped in my mind .
I try and fake a smile but i just cant hold back . My mind has won I\'m living in the black.
There\'s a demon who whispers in my ear , don\'t be a coward just do it nobody cares .
There was a moment i felt happy ,. I was feeling okay , but it didn\'t last long slowly going away , day by day .
It\'s like I\'m drowning without actually drowning , nobody notices how broken i am .
My parents , my teachers they don\'t see it but I\'m crying out for help.
Nobody listens as I say I wanna die.
I have no friends because nobody understands why .
Do I really deserve to feel like this ? .
Why is it me ? All I do is bleed .
I cut in the bathroom , I cut in my bedroom . I cut so I can finally feel something.
I\'m empty inside what did I do to deserve this life ?.
Midnight cry\'s and pains in my eyes , what can I do to feel alive ?.
One day , maybe just one day I\'ll end it all as I smile and say I finally did it .
No more pain because I finally hit the vein .