I have tried my best
to keep this painted on smile
so you think I’m still going stong
you left me once
for crying too much
now with no tears
you leave for no reason
but not feeling the relationship
the one you missed
when we were apart
now all this paint
falls off my face
every tear I held in
As colorful as the last
drop by drop
my fake smile disappears
more and more
showing you the truth
you ask why
I never told you
why I held it in
all I could say was
i was scared
of you walking away
now I’m just sitting here
looking like a fool
I should have known
by the way you talked
you would never stay
I should have walked
I’d rather be broken
before even starting
then travel a while
then be lost a broken
in a place far away
from where I was started
The tears I cry now
will always be showing
for the hole you have left
will never be filled
i won’t be surprised
if I find myself lonely
but at least I can say
my paint is put up
i learned my lesson
i shouldn’t have to paint a smile
my smile should be there
because I’m happy
even if it will take a while
I’ll let the clock tick
as I walk away
away from
the fear
of losing you
away from the pain
i’ve Always felt was coming soon
and away from the mask
I no longer will wear.
so goodbye
and I hope
you live well