I want this empty feeling to go away, it\'s constant.
My life has changed so much, for better or worse
I still feel despondent.
I am grateful for what I have
but it\'s hard getting up in the morning,
You say I am depressing,
these feeling come without warning.
I do things to keep my mind off things,
but when I am not with you I wonder.
Why anyone would love someone,
whose broken.. it makes me ponder.
And when I start to over react,
that is when my mind breaks down..
and I have a panic attack.
If I am quiet that\'s when I am best,
because when I chat shit I cannot rest,
I go without sleep, which makes me worse
and this is when you start to wonder,
is this relationship is a blessing or a curse.