Have you ever wanted to disappear? I have, to melt into the sky and float amongst the stars.
I could dream my life away. Other times I want to be 100% present, feel my fears, my pain, the ice cold rain drops as the sky cries with my heart.
I feel comfort in the rain, like I could just let life wash away.
Now my socks are wet, water soaked in between my toes as I look up and feel the sting of the clouds stringing out the life its collected.
I cant help but look at the lights on the hills and wonder about all the lives they hold. About how many of them are feeling broken hearts for the first time,
love, passion, loss, and how many feel nothing at all.
It reminds me that life is complicated, messy, tragic, and beautiful.
Im scared of the unknown but as I walk thinking of the stars I find comfort in the fact that I have absolutely no idea
what the fuck im doing.