Daddy, you were the first man that I ever loved;
The first man that ever showed me what it meant to be loved.
Your drunken nights,
Your drunken words.
Only present enough to make sure I still longed for your love.
Absent enough where I always felt like I did something wrong to make you not love me anymore.
You telling me how worthless I am was better than you not talking to me at all.
You slamming me up against the wall was the only touch I was worthy of receiving.
Daddy, you taught me how men are supposed to love me.
Daddy, you set the standard.
Now I no longer question why me?
Why do all of these men in my life abuse me?
Why do all of these men in my life tell me I am worthless?
Why can I not ever find a healthy relationship?
Well, now I know;
My eyes are now clear enough to see.
It is because of you Daddy;
Because this is how you showed me love was supposed to be..