I\'m Tired of caring for someone who doesn\'t care for me.
I\'m Tired of sharing my feelings and all i receive is pain.
I get on the game everyday always be feeling the same.
Cause all my friends do is play the game.
All i ever wanted was somebody to talk to about my feelings.
But it seems like i will never find the one.
They say there\'s somebody for everybody.
But i never had anybody. At this rate i don\'t think i ever will.
Every night i talk to myself and i ask myself what is wrong with me.
I never get an answer i just wait til i fall asleep.
I\'m Tired of pouring out my feelings and always be receiving pain.
All i ever do is find somebody that\'s not the same.
I am starting to give up on this LOVE thing its driving me insane.
Everyday i always hope i will find somebody.
But everyday i realized that i am living in a fantasy.
Because in reality all i ever find is nobody.
I always get rejected every time i think i have a chance.
I am always left with a broken heart and a low Self-esteem.
I am starting to think love is nothing but a fantasy.
I\'m Tired of always being a friend.
thats all people think i am.
Every time i tell her i like her.
She will reject me and that\'ll be the end.
Sometimes i have a dream that i am in a happy relationship.
i feel so happy like life can\'t get any better.
Then when i wake up i cry because that feeling i felt was a feeling i never felt.
and sadly i never will.
Sometimes you just got to face facts.
There\'s not somebody for everybody.
cause if there was i would\'ve had somebody.
but every time im alone.
the only thing i can think of is that i have nobody.
I have decided that i am never going to find a relationship.
cause its not going to happen.
it would\'ve been nice to have somebody.
but too bad that i have nobody.
One night i was thinking of what to do about these negative feelings i felt.
My mom told me \"if i ever feel some type of way write it on paper.\"
At first i didn\'t no what she meant, but now i understand.
if i didn\'t express these emotions i would\'ve been more of a broken man.
My Parents are in the process of getting a divorce.
It used to hurt me to know that my parents are seperating.
But now i am numb to the pain.
Even though i think i can\'t feel pain from it somehow i still think it effects me.
I have had dreams of when my parents were happy.
Then i wake up mad and upset.
I feel like my life is going into a downward spiral.
The negativity overpowers the positivity.
The only thing keeping me sane is appreciating the small aspects of life.
I hope in the future, happiness will comeback into my life.