A disconnect between heart and mind
Where each one goes its own way
Torn between feelings, never defined
Palpable fears reason cannot, will not allay
My heart is filled with wonder and joy
The mind in turmoil, unable to control
My emotions, my part in this ploy
Fear that I might be losing my soul
There is convention, the right thing to do
But a strong longing that cannot be denied
All these years I truly wanted to love you
I hope you believe me, I more than tried
I aspired to be the wife you deserve
Just like I promised so long ago
But now my life took a sudden swerve
Where it will lead me, I need to know
I stifled my true feelings, life was a lie
This is not about you, one day you will see
It’s just the way it is, don’t ask me why
It is time to go, she is waiting for me