No one knows how much
I truly adore you
No one knows how much your voice
Your smile
Your laugh
Your presence
And the fact that you consider me a friend
Mean to me
No one understands that
The moment I first laid my eyes on you
I knew you were everything
I’ve ever wanted
In a friend
In a partner
In a person
In anyone that I’ll ever know
And yet
I wish there was more
I want to put the past behind us
I need to forget those toxic people
Who thought they could corrupt us
And that no, you don’t still like her
You just tolerate her
Like you would with anybody you don’t like
Because you’re nice
And you’re able to do that
And I want to be like that
But I can’t
Because you’re you
And I’m me
And we’re two different people
With the same mentality
Your eyes are pools of dark chocolate
That reflect intelligence
I don’t mind that you sing a lot
Because so do I
And your voice
Whether you talk or sing
Is the most amazing sound in the world
Not just to others, but to me
You have the best grades out of anyone I know
Your teachers compliment you on your work
You’re already taking college courses
And I’m the complete opposite
My grades are low and my work is hardly noteworthy
I do just enough work to get by
You’re so damn successful
And I’m nothing
I wish you knew
How much I enjoy your existence
And that since I first talked to you
I wanted to be your best friend
Because you’re so great
And so talented
And so amazing
And so funny
You sing
You act
You’re smart
You’re kind
And yet you hide so much from the world
Things that I know you know I know
And I just haven’t brought it up
Because that bridge is broken
And if I bring it up I’ll upset you
And if I upset you I’ll feel bad
And if I feel bad I’ll stop talking to you
And if I stop talking to you I’ll be sad
And if I’m sad I have to lie to everyone around me about why I’m sad
And if I lie I’ll be caught
And if I’m caught you won’t be there again to relate
Because I’ll have cut off communication and I won’t want to bring it up
People say you’re arrogant
People say you’re too nice to be angry
But when you are angry, it’s a storm
And I know that
But that’s why I try not to make you angry
And I don’t think you’re arrogant
I lied to people when I said that
I really think you’re wonderful
So please just recognize that I feel awkward asking for your new email
And that I’m sorry I only talk to you about one thing
But that’s something we have in common
And I love having something to talk about with you
And please just notice my appreciation
And how much I’ll miss you when you’re gone
And that I’ll think of you everyday
And miss you a whole lot more
And if you ever come back
Just remember me
And please visit
Or invite me to a get together
Because even though
I am one in many friends
I’ve known you for five years
And loved you just as long