Tonight, I would love for you to stay.
But you bitterly said
\"we\'ve got nothing left to say.\"
Why is this extremely emotional
and long?
I no longer know how to be strong.
I\'ve lost all my pleasant senses
and my charming grace.
As blotches of cheap mascara
run down my inanimated face.
I\'ll lay motionless
crying this very night,
with you no where near.
And marvel on the mystery
of why I am still here...
Loneliness is too much to bare.
This can\'t possibly be fair!
I needed you so much,
But you never cared.
Our history deludes
every part of me.
My memories are a reminder of all
we\'re supposed to be.
You\'re blinded by your ego for all
the wrong you\'ve done.
It hurts me so bad
that I was never going to be your number one.
You\'ll ignore it all and
never feel the shame.
You\'d rather abandon me
And never say my name.
My agonising trails
of defeated emotions,
Are shifting my coping
effectively out of proportion.
Thoughts of you are fatiguing
my fragile mind.
Answers to important questions
It can not find.
No one knows about
This collapsing smile i disclose.
They all fail to notice,
it is unoccupied and cold.
And counterfeiting it
is becoming tiresome and old.
But it shouldn\'t be you that is to blame.
I should have contemplated clearly,
That your love for long hasn\'t been the same.
Maybe it was denial
Or maybe it was shame.
But now chasing
is insufferably Painstaking,
And My laughter is fast
Vacating.
I can feel it running
Miles away.
Departing from all
My dreams of yesterday.
Can no one see me dying
Deep inside?
And severely trying to find
A serene place to hide?
Universe please,
Don\'t you see me blue?
I\'m lost, confused and
Running out of clues.
Maybe my subconscious
Is innocently blind and deaf,
Or this is a carefully planned
Destruction against myself.
Flash backs fabricate a smile,
But also bring back more tears.
I can\'t halt the demons
That have a hold on my fears.
I honestly don\'t know where to go
To forget all the secrets,
You\'ll now never know.
Why are my eyes resisting to close?
My anger against you,
I profoundly try to dispose.
Tears are descending
down my sore face.
I\'ll no longer request
for your warm embrace.
Don\'t come near me
Just let me cry
I need to find
Redressing words
To say a short adequate goodbye....
\"For the love ❤️
That was Never Mine,
I mustn\'t complain...
Instead,
I should feel grateful
To have ever felt this pain.\"
FallenDreamer09