I\'m only twenty years old,
But my life seems to be flying by.
It\'s hard to enjoy it,
When I know I could die tomorrow.
I saw a girl laughing today,
She was with her friends.
She looked happy and carefree,
I bet she\'s not afraid to die.
But as for me...
It consumes my every thought.
I lie awake till the small hours,
Agonizing over it.
I try to slow down,
My perception of time.
I try to make moments,
Last as long as possible.
But they always end.
I\'m always left feeling,
Like life\'s slipping through my fingers.
I hate it.
Why can\'t I be like that girl?
Why can\'t I live without fear and pain?
I want to feel the things she feels,
To forget death, and live.
I just don\'t want my last thought,
To be one of envy.