A lust that wasn\'t meant to be. Born out of a rise of interest. There was no bonding band as my mother cracked her hips to give life to her confessions. She held hands with belief of the most high, scream out echoing as her broken continent began to give a new birth to a new royal nation. Screeching from all 4 corners with the strength of her mothers mother to guide her.
Let there be light
Giving birth to land with no knowledge of progression
Oh how she love her child... she reach to the heavens held my head up said thank you god and gave me a name
A divine language that only an angle could hear
I was perfect I was pure with imperfections that held her feet when the devil delivered me
She had no knowledge of future well being sent out a praise for my better future not aware that it\'s a spell for self destruction
She put all her faith in my name as it tied to my soul, whisper in my ear and said I love you
She prayed for angels but I enter this world with a demon
I did not chose to be like this... why me
Cursed with another sin that came from a missing figure.. wonder if I inquired it if he played his role, not teaching but having to learn it\'s okay to be me, to not let shame win over my life ,to claim everything that my mothers mother destined for me but she cannot pass on her feminine essence because I am a male
You left her before I could even take my first breath leaving me to grow up thinking I did something wrong, you cursed my name!!
I use to look in the mirror everyday wishing for life when the devil stood behind held my mouth shut n said death
Relying on the back bone of my mother that\'s diminishes everyday while hating her for thinking that she reason why you weren\'t in my life
You did leave me with someone..that demon ......Am I wrong for wanting you to take it back..the one that gave birth to them all, reaccpecting myself to a limitation instead of conquering my demons I accept them, yelling down to the grown You are my father!!
Years later I reclaim my body held hands with angels and asked questions...is it okay to be this way still no response
I scream and kiss at their feet and ask for forgiveness but they told me to accept myself
I stood right up and just before I could ask if this was sin my demon, the you left me with snatched my hand
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My life is mine now Now that I have the knowledge that I am bless with multiple lives I will make the best of this one I am the Greater version of me I build my own foundation not you anybody or anything will destroy my plans I am determine to make a shift in my next life. My life will be beautiful because Im changing ties with this one, the shift begins now... oh how I will be praised....this is my destiny and I build every bit of it! Most of all father I forgive you