I’m always upset because the things you tell me aren’t sincere, you always lie to me and then ask me questions like “why do I love you?” Or you ask me “what would it be like if we were together?” And I never answer. I never answer because those questions are torturous to me. My heart breaks every time I hear you talk about her, my soul can’t handle it anymore. I want you and only you but sadly she already has you and will continue to have you. I never wanted to be the secret affair but sadly I am. I never wanted to be that person but it’s too late for that. I fell into your trap and the only one hurting is me, the only one who is unhappy is me. You go home to her every night and I go home alone. She’s your other half I am not. You and her share history, we do not. You are meant for her and not me.