Pcos Candidtate:
Why am I not bleeding?......my monthly suprise used to be right on time the 28th of every month.
Why?.....why does it hurt this much....my knees are weak i feel weak...im gonna go lay down
Dear diary, tonight we went all the way...no protection....oh god......
OH! I started...THANK GOD!! IM ONLY FIFTEEN!
Wait....it hurts so bad.....something does not feel right ....I got up....i tried to walk...the pain was intense....i make it to the toilet....i pull down my pants....theres so much blood.....there is something in my underwear....what ....is..........this?. My eyes wide....i pick it up....its not discharge...it is not a blood clot...but ....my baby....I screamed for my mother. She runs in and she stares at me...i ask her...mommy...what is this....and she says to me....thats your baby....she shuts the door and leaves me in silence....i cant move....i cant cry...im stuck and i dont know why...
I wrapped it in a piece of toilet tissue...and i place it in the water......and i flushed it....
I run my self a bath..the water wasnt even half way....i sat...and when I stood..the rest just came out....im shaking...
Since then i tried....to bring my baby back. I tried....but to no avail....i am 22 years old now. I am told...pcos is the cause of my infertility. The reason i cannot bring my child into the world....the reason i dont bleed normally anymore...months...of not knowing....sharp pains...and they only thing i can think of are ...rocks...just rocks...sitting on my ovaries...killing my chances of being a mother....of allowing my dreams for life to come true.....how do i give up....how do i not want to do what a women is supposed to. I have been robbed...what ..can i do....Nothing. Nothing at all.