Dysthymia

Mental illness.

I\'m always around someone yet so alone
Falling deeper and deeper as it is unknown
The laughs and smiles don\'t seem to last
The moment is a enjoyable and happens so fast
But as I get home the night gets near
Anxiety and depression is something no one can hear
Happiness falls down my cheek as I want it to end
Death and suicide is what my mind recommends.
What is the answer, what will I physically do
I don\'t know what my mind is turning me into.