I don\'t express myself
I don\'t deal or think with my emotions cause I wasn\'t taught to do it for me
you are my true first love
I can\'t be selfish and let you stay
I can\'t not be selfish and push you away
Though I love you and a part of me will stay with you
Though I felt that part leave when you walked through that door
I need to let go
I hate the idea
I want you to come back
I want you to FIGHT for me at all cost
I can\'t let you
I see you in my future, But I have to let go
I\'m breaking more as I write this
And that call nearly made me make you come back
I must let go not of what we shared but of you
I will wear what you gave me
I will smile as though I never left you
But I will hurt for a while and i know you will too
The worst part of this is I\'m doing the one thing i don\'t want to do
I have to hurt YOU
This last thing pains me to no end cause all I want to see is another day with you
But for once I need to think of me not anyone else
Will I still see you
Will she be better
How soon will we move on
Will we come back to each other
I ask myself this
Cause this is my last note too you
You will be in my heart forever even though not how we thought
-K