Here is my non-logical logic
Here is my hypocritical hatred of hypocrisy
Here is why I think that everyone else is wrong and I’m right
About everyone saying I’m right
Because I disagree
I don’t think I want my life because it is a good life
No
It is a great life
But why should that matter
Cause a privileged kid unprivileged in knowing unprivileged wants to relate to the unrelatable
And hates himself for the fact he can’t
Why?
Because he doesn’t want to have it good
He wants struggle
He wants what he hears about in all the made up stories of his mind
And while he thinks and writes his real-life moves
Moves around him in ways he chooses to not understand
But it would be so easy
To easy
But would it?
He wouldn’t know
He has never tired
Not to himself or anyone else
Himself is I
I is throwing away
I is letting decay
Screw grammer
Because all it creates is teachers and Nazis
I turn to we in my generation of love through hatred
Making love and spreading knowledge of good
Through means and terms of agree or be wrong
Who needs to be woke when I would much rather be asleep?
Don’t you see?
Don’t you see what you are doing brothers and sisters of my disowned age?
We are continuing the pattern that will just continue on through all of time
It doesn’t matter
NOTHING EVER DOES OR EVER WILL
But it helps a cause more if you truly act the part instead of just looking like it at the forefront
You saying that the opposition should be scalded and take your place will only give them the power you now hold to rise up and take over
Putting violence against the ones you say make the violence would only help them right?
But what will they say to the privileged white male who poses these questions?
I don’t really care anyways
Because those struggles are not my focus
I find it funny that within all this my generation is also known for WANTING TO DIE
that’s fun ain’t it?
so what’s the problem with all the school shooters?
and terrorist attacks?
I don’t want to die
They don’t either
So don’t say what you don’t mean
I want to not be required to exist
I want to not be required
I want to not be
Because then I don’t have to die
Because then I don’t have to
Because then I don’t
MY HEAD WANTS TO EXPLODE AND RELEASE THE FIRES THAT NO ONE HAS EXPERIENCED
MY HEART WANTS TO LEAP FROM MY CHEST AND DIVE VEINS FIRST OFF A BUILDING
but what if someone else has experienced worse?
What if everyone feels this amount of pain every day and I am just
sad
but what then if it is the opposite?
What if this pain is not known in any other capacity anD I AM THE ONE BEING PUNISHED LIKE I DESERVE?
Not being required to exist
Not being required
Not being
I imagine it is what everyone wants
What we are told life will be when we are in middle school, Or at least in my experience
trust me, I already know I’m wrong
I was told you had to find something you liked
After you found it, just do that
Forever
And everything would be awesome
But what if what I liked was Music?
What if what I liked was Video Games?
WHAT IF ALL I EVER WANTED TO BECOME WAS NOTHING AND NOTHING ELSE
then I wouldn’t be where I am It would be bad
I would lose many great things and people
But it would be good
But it would be
But it would
They would lose me