I\'m losin every bit of hope that a brotha could have.
I offer peaceful words, in return I\'m getting back trash.
They destroy a good man for entertainment and laugh.
Then got the nerve to look at me like I’m pathetic and sad.
Lately seems like only negativity up for grabs.
I’m left to wonder how the Hell this brutal world came to pass?
Rhetorical question aside to change the subject real fast.
I’m barely gray looking for graves as if I’m hitting the gas.
Got me hoping praying and wishing for a random gat blast.
So I can be like Dr. King and finally be free at last.
Most of these feelings emerging cause I’ve had a rough past.
If most men are just like granite, I’d be bulletproof glass.
A little more sensitive, but still taking multiple blasts.
I’m what the creator has made me it’s not something I asked.
I don’t think I’d be that foolish, given this aftermath.
Maybe I was Hitler in the past, deserving this wrath.
All I know is when this life does end, I’ll likely be glad.
Trying to be Christ-like is to endure sufferin.
You can lose your money, wife and crib even some friends.
The only thing you can go back to is God once you begin.
His promises are all that matters when it comes to the end.
when it comes to the end.
I guess I’m writing this when folks like me need encouragement.
Even when times at their darkest, far from encouraging.
Remember Revelations when your patience starts running thin.
If you forgettin, crack the book and reread His word again.
Sometimes it helps and it could feel like the burdens lessen.
Other times could be a lesson that might need refreshing.
A moment to satisfy rage is never worth regressions.
You may know consequences but that may not stop regretting.
Play the tape forward for more than just a few seconds.
Remember always alcohol does way more harm than helping.
“Don’t question His methods. And keep your anger from progressing.”
I bet that is the message for myself, if I am guessing.
All I know is finding a beat such as this has truly been a blessing.
And all the time spent writing this was more than worth investing.