I can\'t keep going on this way.
Feeling as if I\'m such a fuck up.
Nothing I do is right
All I do is make people suffer
I\'m sorry for all I\'ve done
For all I didn\'t do
I deserve nothing in life
All I am is pain...
Giver of sadness, pain, and regret
I seep unrelenting destruction hard to forget
All I needed was to be wanted and loved
But all I am became tattered and shoved
Here on the ledge do I stand on the edge
Of all the pain that has corroded and sledged
Pounding my psyche unto no end
It hurts, It swells, inside me it grows
This unrelenting sadness, nobody knows
I hide how I feel though I know not to
It\'s better to talk, but I don\'t want to
They say life gets better, but what\'s the point?
To live in the ways that others have set before us?
Money, TVs, all the cool toys.
Buy now! Buy now! For what?! Controll...
If you buy all these things, it\'ll cure ur sadness!
For all you need is to take part in our madness!
Fuck you all for all your schemes
Embezzling money to buy more things
You people make me sick
But what\'s it matter?
No one cares, while they just get fatter
But here I am stagnant, and still pondering
Do I take flight?
Or let them all drown me, pull me and fight
To fly is to be free
To stay grounded,no glee
All life choices are your own
Or are they? I\'ve never known
I\'ve tried and tried but just can\'t do it
What\'s next that will push me on through it?
The threshold of freedom of all life\'s plights.
Good days, bad days, and all of the fights
I was there for my friends
I was there for you
I was there through and through
But what do I receive for my kindness?
A knife in my back shoved... shoved into.
They have changed, but we all do you say,
For we all turn a page.
But they\'re only there, when they set the stage.
My daughter doesn\'t know me, my dad is enraged
In sadness and anger he drinks his own grave
You\'re all entirely selfish with a facade of kindness
You know nothing of what all\'s behind this
I\'m done, I\'m through. With this life of grey
To the depths of darkness do I now stray
Weary and alone now will I travel
Through this threshold of knives and unholy gravel
The shards of steel, rip through my flesh
As the gravel fills, pushing and grinding
This new feeling that I am now finding
Devouring my body
Cold as stone
My soul still trapped
I\'ll always be alone.