I am looking in this mirror God and what do I see
The reflection of a sad person staring back at me
She isn’t stunning by any means
No makeup
Pony tail
And old torn up jeans
You would think by now
There would be a better version of me.
I handed my life to you
I’ve worked through lots of things
I’ve forgiven people I hated
I have tried to work through this self hatred thing
But I can’t let it go
When I get to your feet
I try to set it down
But for some reason
I Always retreat
When I’m not looking in the mirror
I feel like I’m a different being
I make people laugh and smile
But I’m just not remembering
Because the confidence is shattered
When I get just a reminding glimpse of me
It’s like this person i am is trapped inside of this hideous thing
I just don’t understand God why I can’t just love me?!
My beloved, My prscious child
I know that you can’t see
The you that I have created is so beautiful its blinding
The scales are falling from your eyes and yes you have unbound many chains
But the reason you can’t see you is because your looking at the wrong things
You see, you look at your flesh and ask Me how to love it
But My Spirit can’t teach you how to love flesh
It teaches you how to love Me
So when you look in the mirror or any kind reflective thing
The only thing your seeing is the part thats not like Me
It cannot show you your spirit
It cannot show your personality
It doesn’t show your beautiful mind
And those are the reflections of Me
My grace it is sufficient
And one day your prison of dust will be gone
So when you ask Me to teach you how to love yourself
Focus on the you that will be left outside of that body
Because you ARE beautiful to Me!