just a girl.

One

One

Just one cut, just one.

I promise myself, but I know deep down one cut will turn into 

2,

than 3,

4, 

even 5. 

As I add up cuts, the deeper I’d go.

I crave the feeling though. 

The feeling of relief, of feeling, deserving, of control.

Although I do not have “control”.

it controls me.

Therefore no.

Not even “one” cut.

I have power, a choice.

I cannot will not let cutting control me. 

 

-clean 3 weeks