Dear self where do you find yourself where you see me
Every single line becomes a voice inside your sea
You see
I left her on the doorstep our love was ever true
The fact is i learned a lot what exactly well im not always sure
But I left it behind now and that is the forward moving stone yet ever unturned
I love you and all that you are
But baby lately we’ve been drifting apart and i know it began well and was never supposed to end
But how do we know those things weren’t our pretend
How do we know our future at 18
We can’t and never will our lives are unforeseen
I want to come back to you and want to go away
So im saying goodbye again just for one more day
You see I fell in love with real and not fake
And you fell in love with every other mistake
Our paths were a misstep and just what we need
Ed our paths were a misstep and from that flowers seed
Ed i know you arent as scared and that makes me feel like I’ve made a difference
The difference is things got hard and life threw us against the ground
I love you and all that you are
But baby lately we’ve been drifting apart and i know it began well and was never supposed to end
But how do we know those things weren’t our pretend
How do we know our future at 18
We can’t and never will our lives are unforeseen
I want to come back to you and want to go away
So Im saying goodbye again just for one more day
I’m trying to learn
Give me what i need life its my turn
Or maybe it was
If this is what i need how do i know that need won’t conquer me
If this is what i want im standing in a circle
All around me no points no thoughts just a line that doesnt end
The beginning was never clear and now that time has passed
When will i begin again and when will my time run out of gas
I love you and all that you are
But baby lately we’ve been drifting apart and i know it began well and was never supposed to end
But how do we know those things weren’t our pretend
How do we know our future at 18
We can’t and never will our lives are unforeseen
I want to come back to you and want to go away
So Im saying goodbye again just for one more day
The fact is i missed you and became confused
I love you and my alone and those got fused
And in the end no one was left unscathed
Except for me of course because im not the hero today
If this is a story where do i write and how do the thoughts form its not that kind of fight
If this is a song where are the verse what is the rhyming scheme what is the purpose
If this is a poem then it won’t hit deep
It won’t make any fucking sense at the end of this beat
I love you and all that you are
But baby lately we’ve been drifting apart and i know it began well and was never supposed to end
But how do we know those things weren’t our pretend
How do we know our future at 18
We can’t and never will our lives are unforeseen
I want to come back to you and want to go away
So Im saying goodbye again just for one more day
I hear your voice and see your face and every single thought runs out of the place
Then in creeps the memories and the darkest of tears
It’s only been fifteen months not fifteen years
I should be able to move on life should be clean
I should be able to vacuum up this scene
But maybe it’s not her or me or him or us
Maybe the truth is that life just fucking sucks
Yet others walk around with the smiles off fade
Making me want to be them be under their shade
Make me want to see them and ask them how they are
When in truth i just want to be noticed again
I love you and all that you are
But baby lately we’ve been drifting apart and i know it began well and was never supposed to end
But how do we know those things weren’t our pretend
How do we know our future at 18
We can’t and never will our lives are unforeseen
I want to come back to you and want to go away
So Im saying goodbye again and this time it stays
The truth is im unhappy when alone or with you
I need sex and love and all that its true but i also need to grow and sleep and move on
Even though when alone my conscience is gone
We couldn’t have known the future at 18
Even though you think you know life and all that is green
I want to make love with you and feel you and want you to stay
But somehow my mind is telling me it’s better this way