When I was 10, I got called mean names.
When I was 11, I began to self shame.
When I was 12, I had over 1,000 Face book Friends.
When I was 13, I wanted my life to end.
When I was 14, I began to question my sexuality.
When I was 15, I faced a harsh reality.
When I was 16, I made new mates at college.
When I was 17, I thought I had wise knowledge.
When I was 18, my life came to a stop. Everything I thought I knew, I forgot.
I was unsettled and unhappy and my life turned upside down. I’m lucky now it’s turned back around.
People I trusted went against my trust and people I had love for used me for lust.
At 18 I felt out of control, I felt lost and abandoned and confusion in my soul.
Things happened when I was 18 that shouldn’t have happened at all.
Things happened when I was 18 that triggered an emotional fall.
But things happened when I was 18 that gave me my strength today.
Things happened when I was 18 that made life seem okay.
Being 18 sounds so naive and so fun, people think that 18s when your life has just begun.
But I know that 18 can be far more real then it seems.
And being 19 has felt like refreshed sun beams.
I am now 19 very soon to be 20.
I’m still new to the earth, but I’ve learnt plenty.
Each day I look forward to new knowledge I can gain.
I’m growing and developing in a life with little pain.
I am now 19 and my life has been refreshed.
New goals to achieve, a girlfriend to love, Life seems to be the best.
Each day I feel grateful for the life I\'m blessed to live,
The years behind me have taught me how to forget and to forgive.
I am now 19 and excited for what future years will bring,
Preparing for all kinds adventure, and new ideas to spring.
I wonder what my 20’s show? I wonder if they’ll be good?
But wonder is where my curiosity ends. I wouldn’t want to know if I could.
I hope that when my 20’s arrive they arrive with peace and love.
Even though my life has had some downs, overall its been unbelievably good.
I just cant wait to relax and live and see what happens next.
I’m just continuing to live my life, with hope, love and respect.
Peace and love ~E