Never Thought That This Would Be Exactly What I Needed,
To Sit Outside, And Write How My Happiness Got Deleted.
I Can’t Even Explain The Way I Really Feel,
About How Everything Around Me Now Just Seems So Real.
Have I Been Lost This Whole Time?
Do I Press Rewind?
Do I Really Wanna Think Of How I Lost My Damn Mind?
I Can’t Seem To Understand Why I’m Always The Villain,
Rumors Like Im Evil Or I Belong In A Prison.
“She’s Drama, She’s Stupid, Nah.. You Don’t Wanna Date Her,
A Monster In Tattoos Who Can’t Control Her Damn Anger.
She’s Crazy, She’s Abusive, No One Can Tame Her”,
And When I Call Their Shit Out... They Be Regretting It Later.
See I Always Tried To Just Mind My Business,
Because Worrying About Stupid Shit Is A Sickness.
I Don’t Need The Drama, I Deal With Enough On My Own,
I Dont Even See My Friends Now.. I Just Wanna Spend Time All Alone.
All My Life Ive Been Let Down By People I Love The Most,
Had Some Friends That Broke My Heart And Almost Caused Me To Overdose.
It’s Not Fucking Easy Being Someone Like Me,
Suffering From Inattentive A.D.H.D.
Having To Always Feel Like I’m Never Enough,
Cant Even Control My Attention, I’m Always Fed Up.
No One Ever Bothered Or Wondered Why,
Why Everytime I Was Angry, I Just Started To Cry,
All They Ever Saw Was Me Losing My Mind,
And Never Cared About The Pain I Was Carrying Inside.
All My Ex’s Claimed That They Were Abused By Me,
To Cover Up The Fact That THEY Fucked Up On Me
All They Ever Did Was Put The Blame On Me,
Because It Irks Their Fucking Soul Not Being Chased By Me,
Why Is It So Fucking Hard To Be Honest?
This Is Why I Never Believed In A Damn Promise.
I Was Always Known As The Quiet One,
When Really I Was More Of The Observant One.
I Needed To See,
Who’s Really Fucking With Me...
And Who The Fuck Deserved My Damn Loyalty.
Funny I Say That, Cuz Look At Me Now,
I’m Writing And I’m Happy, I’m Wondering How,
Away From All That Fake Shit That Aint Allowed,
All Of You That Hurt Me Made Me Stronger, Now Take A Bow.