I can\'t get out of bed and I don\'t know why
my mind is telling me to move but my body is laid flat out
Like my soul is trapped in a prison of this body I am forced to call mine
each hour
each minute
each second
I can\'t explain my rage
I can\'t explain my emptiness
The feeling of I need to search for something
WHAT?!
I feel like my soul is scratching for a way out and it can\'t
I feel like I am wasting time
I am wasting another minute of my life again
waiting
hoping
searching
WHAT?!
I am screaming in my mind and can\'t understand the words
I am forcing myself to carry on when I can\'t
I am exhausted without any reasoning
I am failing with no cause
except me
I am drowing and on fire with these nonverbal thoughts screaming at me
like I am some prisoner in a circus that is known as my body
I hear the laughing of others at the joke I am
I hear the breathing of my daughter asleep next to me that I know I don\'t deserve to hear
My soul is a prisoner in my body and I am screaming help but no one hears
I don\'t know why