I Hear My Alarm Go Off, It’s 4:49 In The Morning,
Half Asleep, I Look Out The Window And Notice That Outside It’s Pouring.
I Text If Your Ready, You Said “Yea Give Me A Minute,
Feeling Sick, The Car.. Can You Just Go Wait In It?”
Ready To Leave, And I Start Noticing The Dark Circles Under Your Eyes,
How Did This Happen, What Do I Do?
I’m Trying So Hard Not To Cry.
Praying In Silence, Hoping That One Day This All Will Be Over,
I Wish We Were Different, I Just Wish We Were Closer,
Im Hating Myself ‘Cause I Can’t Just Stay Sober.
We Get To The Hospital, And I Watch You Walk In,
God You Look Like Me, You’re My Fuckin Twin.
I Don’t Wanna Leave You, I Just Wanna Stay,
It Shouldnt Be You Having This Pain.
On The Way Home I Pull Over, Cause’ Too Much Was Crossing My Mind,
Flashbacks From Our Childhood, To You I Was Never Kind.
I Should’ve Been Nice To You,
Instead I Was Jealous Of You,
Cheli I’m Sorry For Not Being Who I’m Supposed To Be,
I’m The Oldest, I Should Protect You, But You Cant Even Count On Me.
Our Family Has Always Been Awkward, And Only Hug On Special Occasions,
How Sad Is It That We Cant Even Sit Down And Have Decent Conversations.
The Only Way I’ll Know How You’re Feeling Is By Stalking All Your Tweets,
I Should’ve Payed More Attention And Stayed Off Of These Fucking Streets.
I Couldn’t Handle The Divorce.. So All My Weekends Were Full Of Clubs,
All I Wanted Was To Numb My Pain And Couldn’t Stay Off Of These Drugs.
I Wasted Years Trying To Find Myself,
When I Should’ve Been Worried About Your Health.
My Baby Sis, A Film Director Is All You Dream Of To Be,
Trying My Hardest To Save You, I Promise Soon We’ll Find You A Kidney.
I Just Wanna See You Make It,
You Have A Great Future Ahead Of You, Lord Why Would You Wanna Take It?
Cheli Forgive Me, I Feel Like I Always Let You Down,
But I Promise This Time Things Will Change, Im Gonna Stop Running Around.
I’ll Pay More Attention, And I’ll Be More Alert,
Please Tell Me When You Need Me, And Tell Me When It Hurts,
You’re Too Young To Go Through This, I’m Begging God Please,
If I Need To I’ll Do It, I’ll Get On My Knees,
Don’t Do This To Her, Just Do This To Me..
My Sister Doesn’t Deserve This Disease!!!
I Love You So Much And I’m Proud Of You, That’s Something I’ve Should’ve Always Said..
Lord If You Really Have To Take Somebody,
I Say You TAKE ME INSTEAD !