I have this emptiness inside me
I have these thoughts that always taunt me
I’m going crazy over how I think things should be
I am just not me
This pain runs through my veins
These crazy thoughts won’t leave my brain
I resorted to drinking it all away
And lately that’s not even enough
Everyday I wake up and suffer
From my own torturing insecurities combined with all of my impurities
I just want to run away
but I can’t run from myself
So I keep drinking this drink and smoking this cigarette
Until I forget that there is any pain
When it all wears off I come to find
That all those feelings are still attached to me like a ball & chain
I’m in a vicious cycle
And no matter how hard I try to
I can’t get out of this place