i set there and thought about my life
i sought to find out why i feel like this
i talked to my self im the one to understand my self most
my mind was in a knot
i wondered why i wanted another relationship so bad
amd why ive been so sad
i thought about it all for a long long time
i thought about why it was a crime to want the other half that seemingly broke off
then it hit me like a staff but with out the brain but with out the pain
i met the conclusion that i dont need an enchanting female to impale my heart with the double edged blade of love
love often hurts like that
i want a connection a person i had with my lost friend
i miss how we would send text after text
or when we lied under the sun and chat
i liked that i liked...you
but that sun has burned out
the drought was no more
and rain started to poor an ocean of tears
all the fears i once had flowed back in as well
all those emotions stack back up
you wouldnt comply
it used to be me and you against the world
i miss that
now i know not if your dead or at least alive
it deprives my mind of sanity to not have you around
now i walk the around all grounds we stepped on
lonely with out you
i now see the flaws in you
that killed what we had
ill find a friend better than you its times to step off the ground we had
times to ride into the distance with a bike with no brakes not knowing of where im going
but only how im getting there.... good bye sky good bye ground ill be in space exploring what you never gave me...space
a poem by levi cloninger