Words seeping into my skull
Should i stand tall or fold
People say to forgive to love again
That should be my goal
Yet i don\'t want to feel those things again
I don\'t want to put my faith in you just to fall
You left many times before
Always you returned to me waiting at the open door
I can\'t breathe when i think of turning back
I was your child you were my rock
Without warning you sunk into the dark waters of despair
I struggled for years to hold you afloat
Hiding my tears and the marks i leave
Trying to be the strong adult i needed you to be
The water dried up while i was sleeping one day
You packed up your stuff and walked away
The tears fell freely for the first night
After that i lost my fight
I cannot control what you choose to do
However i can chose to focus on me
To continue being the adult as you drift further away from me
I\'m simply done trying to save you
Every moment i held you up i fell beneath the waves
So long to family that i never really had