Cinderella_Pixie

Growing Up Broken

Words seeping into my skull 

Should i stand tall or fold   

People say to forgive to love again   

That should be my goal 

Yet i don\'t want to feel those things again   

I don\'t want to put my faith in you just to fall   

You left many times before   

Always you returned to me waiting at the open door   

I can\'t breathe when i think of turning back   

I was your child you were my rock   

Without warning you sunk into the dark waters of despair 

I struggled for years to hold you afloat   

Hiding my tears and the marks i leave   

Trying to be the strong adult i needed you to be 

The water dried up while i was sleeping one day   

You packed up your stuff and walked away   

The tears fell freely for the first night   

After that i lost my fight 

I cannot control what you choose to do   

However i can chose to focus on me   

To continue being the adult as you drift further away from me 

I\'m simply done trying to save you   

Every moment i held you up i fell beneath the waves   

So long to family that i never really had