The voices around me,
Say it’ll all be ok.
But the voices inside me,
Speak a different way.
It speaks the truth,
And it doesn’t lie.
It doesn’t pretend,
To like this guy.
I wish today,
To take a deep breath.
Reach my final goal,
And accomplish death.
I don’t want to be here,
I’m done with the game.
Every turn I take,
Ends up the same.
So here I am,
Finally knelt down.
I’ll dig my own hole,
Six feet in the ground.
I made this mess,
And took all I could
So no one need suffer,
Cause only I should.
How shall I go,
Shall I be patient and wait.
Or end my own life,
And complete my fate.
Don’t answer that,
I’ll figure it out.
So long I am dead,
Don’t matter the route.
Please understand
I love you all.
But my being alive,
Makes good people fall.
I’m not scared,
I’m ready this time.
Nothing will stop it
I’ll drop dead on a dime.
It’ll be pain full,
But quick in speed.
Removed from this world,
Is what we all need.
Please don’t stand there,
And feel sorry for me,
I’m just a mistake,
Like a rotten seed.
I was once a hero,
In my little one’s eyes.
A blessing to them,
Built on lies.
Please forgive me,
I wasn’t always this way.
How this all happened,
I can’t even say.
But all I can do,
Is fix this wrong.
It’ll be over soon,
It won’t take too long.
So move over world,
And you’ll clearly see.
The last breath I take,
Will set you free.