looking in on the laughter and the smiles
knowing alone as i am across the miles
so far away from who i am who i will be
always knowing always be alone with me
faces lose focus voices lose their sound
are they watching me as i look around
(the bodies are going out of focus now
everyone is just a blur and i laugh
now everyone is the same
what would they say to that)
try to laugh but I can\'t breathe
fear pushes up from beneath
the room has grown too bright
something is wrong something isn\'t right
i swim through the ocean of my thoughts
filled with should have and should have not
i
am
drowning
one long breath deeply taken
soul is torn battered and shaken
do they know i don\'t belong
i came here hoping but i was wrong
i know now again that i should go
yes i think that they do know