I have moments
Glimpses of sunlight
Shining through the shadows
I capture them in photos
Frozen pieces of time
That I can gaze at over and over
Remind myself that this is reality
Just as much as the shadow that I get lost in
These are not just the shiny bits
published for social media
I don’t show these for the rest of the world
These are for me. For my memory.
So that I don’t just remember the days curled up
shutting out the rest of the world.
So that I remember that I did it
I was a mum
I shared the smiles and the fun
And their memories of me will be in the sunshine
Not hiding away in my shadow.