I mean
I can\'t keep accepting into my life
People
and
Experiences
That I actually don’t want anything to do with
Im done
Giving up my own will
For the gratification of others
I can no longer stand by
And look through the windows of my experiences
Trying to touch a life I can’t feel
I can\'t do it like the rest of them can
I can’t feign joy under the light of the computer screen
At the desk job that I hate
Cubicles crushing dreams
And corporations creating monsters
With minds fixated on futures that might never come
My life is destroyed
Because each time I found a piece of it broken
I thought the only way to fix it
Would be the way the world told me how
But for some reason having
Money friends family or health
Still left me spiralling because
As my value for others grew
I threw away the parts of myself
I didn\'t think they wouldn\'t like
So here I am
Slowly picking out pieces of old selves
From that worldly machine
And seeing if there is now anywhere in my existence
They might still fit
I don\'t know
If I\'m the same person I was before
But I know I\'m starting
Beginning again with a mind
Fixated only on my own happiness
My own joy
And I hope it\'s selfish
I hope it brings out something in me that the world has never seen
Something the ones I valued most hate
So I can stand in solidarity
With my alienated alliance and
Grow
Grow into that strong happy stranger
I know I was meant to be
I will no longer compromise
My happiness to the will of others