Emptiness, disconnection, withdrawal, all feelings I cannot shake,
Such feelings becoming increasingly strong, I don’t know how much more I can take.
Unable to connect, to communicate or to form a genuine relationship,
Alone, I travel, through this life, unable to find meaning as I battel through this hardship.
Some may think I’m being silly, just shake it off, it’s all in your head they may say,
The only way to explain this, is if they could be me for the day.
I feel complete disconnection from my body, like an empty soul travelling through time,
Observing and taking notes of other people’s life.
No real care for other people’s problems, complete detachment from emotions,
Waking up every day, pondering my existence and just going through the motions.
Walking down the street, people smiling, asking how I am, what do I say?
I say ‘I’m ok’, the words I have come so accustomed to and say every day.
Little do they know, I am certainly not ‘ok’,
It’s just something to say to keep feelings at bay.
I hope, one day, that I will be ok.