I wake up and see myself laying on the floor with pills scattered around the carpet and in my hand. Why can i see myself? Am I sleeping? Am I dreaming? Am I dead?!
I wake up and see my mother. She\'s upstairs cooking dinner. I wish I could talk to her one more time before I go. I want to hear her laugh and see her smile. I have always loved her smile. I wish I could thank her for being there and I want to tell her I\'m sorry for taking her little girl away.
I wake up and see my father. He is in the garage working on another \"project\". He has always loved spending time working on projects to give to others. Before I leave you, I want to say thank you. I know I don\'t say this very often, but thank you for being my dad, even though we have had some hard times.
I wake up and see my sister. She is driving around town blasting her music, as always. Before I leave I am going to take one more ride with you. You don\'t know I am here right now, but that is okay. I love seeing you like this because i know you are happy. This will always be our time together.
I wake up and see him. He is laughing and having a good time with his friends. I don\'t want to ruin this moment for him because he looks really happy. He was the only thing keeping me here. I hope he can fall in love again when I am gone. I want him to experience it all over again: The first kiss, the first time they touch, the first time he holds her hand, the first date, the first time they look into each others eyes and feel as though the world around them has stopped, the first time he meets her parents, and the first time he puts his arm around her. I want him to fall in love again. I want him to be happy and someday I know he will be.
I wake up and see my reflection. I\'m standing in front of the mirror, just looking a myself. I realize that I am ready to go. I don\'t feel any pain, just happiness. I feel as though a weight has been lifted from my shoulders and I can finally relax and be myself. I have said my goodbyes and I hope everyone can forgive me for what I have done and the life I have taken.