Growing up without a father seems to be the normal
But the feelings and thoughts that come wit it can’t be normal
The heart wrenching feeling of your daddy not being there
The hurt, the pain, and the consistent tears
When I was 4, they locked you up and threw away the key
You was snatched from my grip almost instantly
Phone calls here and there but it’s wasn’t the same
Seems as nobody can relate or feel the same
But you gotta understand...
My eyes used to fill with tears just thinking about you
It shattered my heart not having you here while I was thinking about you
Then a broken hearted girl was born, and it was hard to get here but my heart is mending
Still there is this built in rage that lives inside
Can’t talk it out because nobody seems to understand so I’m gone write it out and make it understandable
I always loved my pops with this unconditional love this pure untampered and unexplainable love
Stuff started happening that I couldn’t control
I started to spiral and I was out of control
I was honestly mad at the world and everything in it
Can’t even tell you what I was really mad about
I was like a ticking time bomb ready to explode
But after a while all the anger turned into sadness and I fell deep into depression
Stop talking to my daddy for a while
I stopped getting the calls and the letters
This gave me time to work on myself
When I got a little calmer pops started back calling and everything was just on the up
I could finally breathe
I was finally free