Why am I so alone? I feel locked up with nowhere to go. It’s on my mind “is this how I’m going to feel when I die?” I keep telling myself it’s up to me to see clearly through my own two eyes but when I try I cry. I’m just so frustrated and I want to die… no I don’t. But I guess that’s why they call it bi and polar because that shit is just opposite but not really if think about it. I guess all I’m saying is you just don’t get it. This is the life I was given I didn’t choose to live it. All you people who say to just get over it have obviously never tried to get it and your more fucked up than me just admit it. You could be rich and healthy with a wife and children and still be more miserable than a Disney villain. But that’s okay, really, just forget it.