I lost my driving force
I dived in
I flounded in an ocean of despair
I kept my head above the water
furiously paddling against the strong current
I grew weary
and decided to give up
I gulped down the salty water
it filled my lungs and clouded my brain
suddenly fitting screaming laughing hallucinating
my skin dissipates into the water
falling apart
screaming
my head going under
I start to enjoy the agony
the feeling of my heart slowing
suddenly I\'m wrenched
kicking screaming flailing shivering gasping
like a baby taking its first breath
helpless and alien
into the world
waiting is a strangers loving arms
the stranger holds my head
they whisper that I\'m loved
I will be cared for
that everything will be okay